24 September. I had no heart to write last night, that terrible record of Jonathan startled me. Poor dear! How he must have suffered, whether true or only imagination. I wonder if there is any truth in that. Did he get his brain fever, and then write all those terrible things, or had other reason for it all? I guess you never know, for I dare not open conversation about the issue with him ... And yet that man we saw yesterday! He seemed pretty sure of it ...
Poor Jonathan! I guess it was the funeral upset him and sent his mind back on some train of thought ... He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding day he said: "Unless some solemn duty comeupon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, mad or sane. "There seems to be through this one thread of continuity ... That terrible Count was coming to London ... If so, and came to London , with its teeming millions ... You have a solemn duty, and if it gets that duty should not shrink from him ... I'll be ready. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and begin transcribing. Then we will be ready for other eyes if necessary. And if you will, then, maybe, if I am ready, poor Jonathan may not be upset, because I can speak for him and never let it bother or worry about it at all. If any Once, Jonathan quite gets over the nervousness he may want to tell me everything, and
Poor Jonathan! I guess it was the funeral upset him and sent his mind back on some train of thought ... He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding day he said: "Unless some solemn duty comeupon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, mad or sane. "There seems to be through this one thread of continuity ... That terrible Count was coming to London ... If so, and came to London , with its teeming millions ... You have a solemn duty, and if it gets that duty should not shrink from him ... I'll be ready. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and begin transcribing. Then we will be ready for other eyes if necessary. And if you will, then, maybe, if I am ready, poor Jonathan may not be upset, because I can speak for him and never let it bother or worry about it at all. If any Once, Jonathan quite gets over the nervousness he may want to tell me everything, and
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